How to start?

The emptiness of this page coupled with the strongest urge to just empty the thoughts in my head on it while also having no idea what those thoughts are, is a clear manifestation of the very reasons why I am here staring at this empty blog post. It has not even been two weeks since I last told a girl that starting a blog is all about starting. Just start and the rest will follow. Now I realize that that precise task is the hard part. I know I want to write this post, but yet it seems impossible. And it doesn't really help that I once mastered this very skill of expressing my thoughts and feelings to everyone that stumbled upon my blog to read. Now I just focus on how it used to be instead of how I could master it again.

This year marks the first year after starting my university studies five years ago that I actually have time to reflect on really anything that has happened to me since. This time of reflecting and almost weird feeling of calm around me has lead to interesting findings in myself. One of them being the realization that I crave for a platform to express myself. For a while, I thought Instagram could be it, but it never took off. And well, I do have TikTok user (with no uploaded videos sadly) but I have a strong feeling that it is not going to be the one for me. Thus, I returned to once so familiar website: Blogger.

For some reason, I feel like I should explain myself and the reasons why I am now here writing this post. Maybe it is because even I am not precisely sure. All I know is that the spark started when I was listening to an excellent audiobook called Quiet written by Susan Cain. In the book, she speaks about introverts being more comfortable sharing thoughts and ideas through internet rather than face to face. Throughout the rest of the chapter (however, I have not finished the whole book yet so I don't know if it will come up later) she brings up examples of how this type of group work while staying at the safety of your own desk always able to just exit the conversation is a natural way for introverts to collaborate. In my mind, I connected this with one of the problems I have lately tried to solve in my own life: finding more ways to express myself. And so, I decided to take up blogging again.

Reasons I'm here:

1. Sharing through blog posts used to be an important way to express myself when I was younger and I want to see if it could be that again.
2. I have now more time in my hands than in years so it's a good time to try something (almost) new.
3. This is also a good chance to reconnect with my other old way of expressing myself: photography.
4. I'm the worst in updating my social media pages so if this takes up I can just link this blog to my friends and family and they can stalk my life from here.

What I think I will write about: (I have no real plan so I don't really know how this will turn out)

• The things that teach and inspire me.
• The interactions I have with the outer world.
• The books I read or listen.
• Whatever comes to mind really.

This blog will not be a representation of what happened to me or the big life events going on around me but rather focus on the interaction between me and those events. I won't be sharing what I ate for lunch or who I had the opportunity to meet today as for reasons I cannot put into words but I just know. This is about me understanding me and meanwhile doing that sharing some interesting points for anyone reading the posts to explore more.

Let's see how it goes!